Yogi Cravings….

I was invited to an art therapy class this week and thought why not. As it would be a great way to connect with others and myself. The energy at the beginning was unsettled, which I admit I contributed to. Even the therapist’s energy was chaotic which was reflected in her actions and her nervous speak. It truly speaks to how much our energy and the energy around us effects us.

As I sat there I questioned how valuable to me this would be and felt myself closing. The conditioning of human nature to judge all situations is so limiting. I realized I had been unsettled all day and it was manifesting into judgment and the rising of my protective walls.

The first exercise was to choose a writing instrument, close your eyes, focus on the breath, and begin to flow with the crayon to paper. This was timed for 2 minutes. The first thought, of many, was to get out of my head and surrender to the freedom. It was humbling to realize how much more work I have to do. I was able to completely surrender by the fourth time with my non dominant hand and let the child emerge. Still working on the letting go piece it seems…..

For me it comes back to the messages I heard as I child in school of not being creative and not able to draw. Those messages become ingrained in me and became louder as I got older. Today was the first step to unbecoming this message. Changes can be made with a conscious choice to do so and the surrender to trying new things. Let go of preconceived ideas of what you are suppose to create and break out of the box you have been in and become authentically you.

The second exercise was even more interesting as you begin by making a mark on your blank paper and then pass it clockwise. Once passed between the three of us four times images turned into a story which you shared with the other participants. For me I had an image in my mind of what shape the picture would take and the basic theme was there, ocean, however the images stirred a deeper meaning.

It was three identical sail boats in the ocean and a whale in the middle of the conformity. While I unbecome what I have been and emerge as my authentic self who does not fit or conform as in the past. To me the whale represented me knowing becoming who I am meant to be is my path however there are decisions to make regarding my path. The “whale” in the room is the fear to make the choice or stay where I am.

On the edge of fear is where you become your authentic self – Joannah Johnson Ratynski

It has been a week of ever changing priorities. I realize from my response to some challenges, how vital my self care ritual is and what happens when I slip from routine.

I cannot stress enough how much a daily yoga practice is a gift. I have never been more focused, goal oriented and grounded. Shout out to Yoga with Adrienne! Check her out on YouTube channel. Yoga truly changed me from the inside out.

As I continue on my journey, growing with each day I ponder new goals and awaken new dreams.

Blessings and Much Aloha…..