This week we began the process of cleaning and sorting the studio. The building itself has a great story, originally a Simpson Sears garage package, turned into a pottery studio and now the teenage zone for the boys and their friends.
Interesting now when you begin to go through items you had forgotten you had, you feel an attachment to them once again. It made me examine how many things I cling to to have a tangible item to go with a memory. Memories fade and flood back in the same instant. It’s the feelings associated with the memory which last a lifetime.
Grief is a strange journey filled with incredible highs and crushing lows. The constant clash of opposing feelings and riding the pendulum of emotions.
This is my journey……
- the joy of memories
- the sudden surge of sorrow
- the expectations of others
- the constant marching of time
- the sense of urgency
- the struggle to accept
- the hesitation to move forward
- the longing for connection
- the drive to accomplish
- the need to leave a legacy
- the urge to suppress joy
- the need to share
- the stolen moments
- the need for a tribe
- the realization life moves on
- the unexpected emotional triggers
- the need for deeper connections
- the wonder of life
- the tiniest moments hold great joy
When in grief it is difficult to express how you are feeling, however emotions reflect in the eyes of others.
How do you wear your feelings?
- like full metal jacket
- like a cozy wool sweater
- like a blooming flower
- like the morning sun peaking over the mountain range
- like the ocean waves crashing on the shore
- like clouds clinging to the mountains
- like fog lifting from the lake
- like dew dripping from the petals of a flower
- like a child jumping in a puddle
- like a waterfall pounding on the rocks
- like rain dancing on the tin roof
- like rolling ocean waves
- like gliding across a clear calm lake
- like the sparkle of a grain of sand
I welcome the emotions as they envelop me, have learned to accept them, and move forward with strength and purpose. I feel deeply and make powerful connections now that I accept the empath in me.
It is amazing what comes to you when you accept you for you and the gifts you have to share. I am opening to the joy of this life each day.
Blessings and Much Aloha……..
Redefining Grief 