The familiar pattern of darkness surround me today, filling my mind with what ifs.
It takes courage and hard work to move through these dark moments.
How do you change the narrative in your mind?
- I meditate and practice yoga aligning my breath with my spirit
- I reach out to a friend and in that safe space the tears, fears and doubts pours out and run down my cheeks
- I walk in nature breathing in it’s healing
Tears are the ultimate release for me when facing fear and doubt.
The urge to hide is overwhelming however knowing from experience that isolation only amplifies the fear.
I am questioning everything including every decision made. Paralysis, stuck in the loop of doubt, what can I learn from this dark place??
What ifs only create pain and isolation brings fear are the biggest takeaways.
The focus and dedication required to rewire your brain to observe a situation, not react takes constant practice and this delicate balance will be challenged constantly.
Allow the failure, rise and practice more. Life is about learning. Standing at the edge of fear and saying yes, requires courage.
What if we viewed change with curiosity and a place of what can be learned?
I am blessed with a great curiosity and a love of learning and in the slow process of rewiring my brain have come back to these two gifts to push myself out of my comfort zone and challenge myself.
It is a messy time.
Life has been totally deconstructed down to the foundation. Now unsure how to rebuild, renew, begin once again I tentatively take a step forward.
Even with so much fear of a new beginning I am moved forward from a place of resilience and resourcefulness deep within me.
I am not my thoughts I repeat over and over.
Just breathe….
The weight of it all can overwhelm and the walls around me begin to form out of habit and flight mode kicks in as my fight mode needs to rest.
Unfocused and uncertain reflects in my writing.
And that’s it, in this moment, I choose to rest, recharge, and take a time out.
What self care in times of fear have proven beneficial to you?
The journey continues.
Blessing and Much Aloha…..
Redefining Grief 