Discovery…

Someone asked me a few days ago “what is love” and wow took my breath away… Think about it, truly what does that word evoke in your mind and deeper in your soul?

I have loved and believe in love fully, however it has never been quite what I expected. That right there is it, I expected……Think about it, we all have the basic need, want, desire to connect intimately with another soul. Along with that comes preconceived ideas of what that love looks and feels like.

From an early age we are filled with images of love and learn its meaning by observing the interactions of those closest to us, our parents relationship.

My childhood was quite magical surrounded by nature and the freedom to explore. In my mind still magical and such a blessing to be so carefree.

My Mom loved us fiercely for a woman who was transplanted from the city to the middle of the wilderness with four children and a husband who worked hard to provide, which kept him from being home.

I have often asked her how she managed the sheer vastness of the foreign atmosphere. She said she just did, it was all she knew. That was what you did for family. See that is love…

Not until I had my own children did I realize how true that is. I will do anything to give my boys a loving secure, nurturing environment to grow up in. The freedom to make mistakes and the discipline to keep them grounded. Not an easy balance….That is love….

Accepting yourself and others for who they are, flaws and all, can be challenging. However when you just be, open your heart and  truly listen, we are all connected. Asking one thoughtful question leads to such discovery and connection. Love is non judgmental….

When someone is in pain even the smallest of gestures are the greatest of gifts. Whether it be cooking, listening to someone’s story, a smile, a hug, reaching out to someone in need. Love is empathy……..

Now in my life I want honest deep conversation. This requires  letting go of fear and asking for what I truly want. It is freeing to be completely honest and not bending your values. Love is vulnerable…….

I embrace the glorious mess that I am. I am flawed. I am befriending all of me. I am peeling back the layers and becoming whole. Love is acceptance……

I am not sure what the future holds for me however I am leaning in, letting go and open to the journey. I am ready…..

Blessings and Much Aloha…..